Navigating Mothers Day Without a Mother

Happy Mothers day! Mother's Day is a beautiful, precious and a holiday which evokes sweetness and gratitude but for some for some who struggle with their mother, have lost a child, deeply want to be a mother or in my case, no longer have their mother, it's a powerful trigger.

I can only speak for myself, but while Mothers day still exists It lives in this  somewhere between knowing that she’s gone and recognizing that part of her is still with you. 

I want to celebrate it because i had an extraordinary mother but also I want to avoid it-- avoiding it is harder work at times. Nope, my mom is no longer a phone call away, upstairs somewhere or running an errand . She is everywhere.

My heart feels strongly about facing this day without her, sadness doesnt ever take up all my space but these last few days its been greedy. 

I don't believe in throwing glitter over shit, there's not always a happy aha moment but the truth is a Mothers love can’t really be gone, It lives forever, even if we do not.

If you are facing this day without your mom even if you are a mom yourself,  I hear you, I see you, I feel you and thank you to those who have shared with me over the time their own stories of loss and healing